My mistake.

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It takes courage to say you’re sorry. I’ve learned that the longer you wait  to apologise, the more difficult it becomes, and then one day it’s just impossible. Mostly because it will have become irrelevant. What ever you did no longer matters to the wronged party. Ironically, by that time, right or not, you kinda lose the argument by default. Because your “opponent” has moved on from what you still mean to make right. The sooner you begin to fix what broke, the quicker you can leave it behind you.

Very often adults/teachers/lecturers won’t admit to kids/students when they’re wrong. Google will expose you before you have time to edit the Wikipedia page. You lose your reliability as well as the student’s respect and trust. It tells a student the little bit of authority you have is more important than your responsibility to actually teach the truth. They realise that you would rather compromise their education than your ego. Would you pay any attention to someone like that?

A font of my own.

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Behold the beginnings of an exciting new project! I should’ve done this ages ago, but I’ve finally started working on my first font. Which I’ll make available on the blog, free to download, very soon. After Oppikoppi of course. But still, very soon! The raw characters need some editing and refining, but getting digital is actually super easy. Watch this space!

It’s a jungle out there.

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A tribe is different from family. If you’re a little odd around the edges, your family learns how to deal with it because the chemicals and codes your biology share tells them that your survival is important. Your tribe is made up of people who share your specific flavour of freaky. These people see what you try to hide and they don’t flinch. They chose to keep you around. They could leave… but they don’t. That means something. It’s so comforting and life affirming to feel someone celebrate your joys with you and understand why you get emotional about what matters to you. I highly recommend it. Frees up a lot of time spent explaining yourself.

I learned the following when I started finding my tribe: Firstly, they tend to move in groups, whether it’s an action cricket team or a book club, they’ve probably started assembling already. All you have to do is what you already like doing, they like that too, so they’ll be there. You’ll know when you meet kin because they speak your language. (My tribe, for example, speaks a mix of profanity, cynicism and sarcasm.) So most importantly, just be yourself hey. If you pretend to be someone else you will attract someone else’s tribe, and trust me, trying to fit in with the wrong tribe is the loneliest feeling I’ve known. It can drive you crazy, take you to some real dark places and convince you of strange things like “YOU’RE the weird one”. But once you have just one more member of your tribe the relief of being able to just do you is very liberating. It really does “take a village” and with the right support and some true understanding you can start living among your natives instead of struggling to survive among strangers. Suddenly, even negotiating with an entirely alien tribe (like in my case, people who “don’t read”…I can’t even…) becomes a cinch, because you’re not insecure about being so very obviously different. Not fitting in doesn’t mean you’re gonna feel alone forever, but not being yourself will most definitely make you feel lonely.

Today was good.

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Dr. Seuss said some awesome stuff in very silly ways, here are a few of my favourites:

“A person’s a person, no matter how small.”

“It is fun to have fun. But you have to know how.”

“He who makes a beast out of himself gets rid of the pain of being a man.”

“Being crazy isn’t enough.”

“Oh, the things you can find if you don’t stay behind!”

“Today was good. Today was fun. Tomorrow is another one.”

“Things may happen and often do to people as brainy and footsy as you.”

“Everything stinks till it’s finished.”

“ASAP. Whatever that means. It must mean, ‘Act swiftly awesome pacyderm!”

“So the writer who breeds more words than he needs, is making a chore for the reader who reads.”

 

 

I don’t know ANY.

happy artists

But, “Dissatisfaction is a symbol of ambition” (Mad Men, Season 5) So the cliche of the perpetually tortured artist isn’t necessarily a symptom but a function of creativity. You get better when you’re unhappy, and if you’re not happy then you get even “more better” (as my two favourite students would say).