A prisoner.

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I identify strongly with this quote. People often say “it’ll get better” or “things happen for a reason” and my personal favourite “it can only go up from here”, which is just indicative of a lack of imagination. It’s all bullshit. Many goodhearted, lovely people die alone, suffer pain, get screwed and many shitty people prosper. I am definitely not an optimist, but I am a PRISONER of hope. Hope is just as narcotic as depression, the two can be very close and equally misguiding. Hope, expectations, disappointment and so on. Optimism is an affliction. It teaches us that if you are not happy there is something wrong with you, you “lack faith” or you need pills, for example. When in reality no one is promised happiness and few achieve it. Most who do stumble upon it by pure luck, sheer randomness or hedonism. I highly recommend the latter.

The machinery is always going.

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If you sleep. If the gears keep you awake, eventually they turn slower and creakier and heavier and more labourious. So the noise and the effort adds to the lists of things that go bump in the night and that keeps you from real rest. … but I would rather go mad from sleep deprivation than stop the works and walk around empty.

I knew it!

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Frida‘s story has been a personal anchor for me. Truthfully, it kinda borders on idol worship. I even carry a talisman of her to remind me of her strength, like some people draw from saints. In the film, before her heart fucks her for life, you meet her first boyfriend. He seems nice. After the accident that crippled her with pain he recommends she reads Schopenhauer to get her through being bed ridden. My heart lept when I heard it. She is So inspiring and I’ve admired his work for so long… I knew he was an important thinker from the first time I read The Vanity of Existence. I could feel it in my bones. And look, I was right!

Don’t expect from me…

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Slavoj Žižek, one of my favourite thinkers. I especially enjoy his sense of humour:

“Humanity is okay, but 99% of people are boring idiots.” 

And he can be suprisingly inspiring:

“I’m a pessimist in the sense that we are approaching dangerous times. But I’m an optimist for exactly the same reason. Pessimism means things are getting messy. Optimism means these are precisely the times when change is possible.”

…I can’t focus, I’m sorry…

I am far more freaked out about this week’s upcoming exams than my students seem to be. The irony is not lost on me, oh no, I am painfully aware that I wasn’t even nearly this stressed (or prepared!) for my own exams. Shit, I hope they’ve studied!

Love like yoghurt.

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I just adore this quote by Jarod Kintz! Follow him on Twitter or have a look at his Facebook page if you would like to investigate for yourself. The man is a bit of an enigma… the interwebs seems to be crawling with his quotes, and yet there’s no trace of factual information about him to be found. And I use the word ‘factual’ very lightly, even Wikipedia is stumped. Who ever he may be, he seems to know me very well… ^_^

He also authored three definitions on Urban Dictionary which I thoroughly enjoy:

Sexistentialism: A philosophy that proposes that a person should live for the moment, because when you die, you’re screwed. A big proponent of this was Sartre, Kama Sartre.

The Mythical Mr. Boo: A man so elusive, so mysterious, that nobody’s 100 percent sure he even exists. And although there are sceptics out there, they can’t prove that he doesn’t exist. One thing’s for sure, he has a reputation of a mystic, urban guru.

The Mythical Mr. Boo is intergenerational. If you are what you wear, he is his own grandma.

The Mythical Mr. Boo is like a fog that creeps about your window while you are fornicating with your wife. And just like fog, if the police ever catch him, he’ll be cleared by morning.

Ourafoura: An entity that hovers over the subconscious like a fog, yet avoids fields and pastures like cows avoid escalators. His wisdom is exceeded only by the vagueness of his memory. He is fond of saying many things, some of which are more cryptic than others. Orafoura, aside from being an entity, can also be described as a spontaneous feeling, like making a chicken suit from scratch, and not making it out of yellow feathers, but out of scrambled eggs. One of his favorite sayings is, “You must be the perspiration when all the world is deodorant.” But that’s just all talk, because Orafoura has no sweat glands.

I am a presence that fills up a room, like the laughter that comes from deep within a child who only has one lung.

 

Pickling.

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I like her outlook, I’m still meditating on the pickling, but I believe she has a very valid point overall. Just something to keep in mind on your Sunday afternoon ^_^

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Today’s doodle was inspired by the first real weekend feeling of the year. Most of the employed population had to go back to work this week, and my heart goes out to you hard working folk. I fight sleep every school night, but hey, sin it up, tomorrow’s Saturday! Only a few more hours of being good to go! Credit to the very cool Nick Cave for the quote.